What happens when we let go of what happened?

The past is the past and we cannot change that. Regardless of the path we follow from now until whenever, there will never be a time where a glimpse over our shoulder, will reflect absolute nothingness. The only way to find the space which holds absolutely nothing is to stop looking backwards, stop seeking answers to the events that have already occurred and allow the idea of total no-thingness to become our reality. The future does not exist also, considering the potential events that may eventually surmount is wasted thoughts, wasted energy and wasted time. When we are present, we are given the opportunity to stare directly at pure energy, an unpotentiated isometric projection that expands beyond our teeny individual conceptualisation of what is. Yet, so often we choose to confine this energy into something that already exists, at least partially.

What causes us to want to restrict this potential? Are we afraid of what it could produce? Or do we not understand exactly what it is that we are looking at?

Throughout our life, the mind finds ways to manipulate our internal patterns and belief systems to protect the individual from external harm. A protection mechanism to ensure we remain loyal to our family, kind to our friends and act safely in this body. These belief systems, these coping mechanisms, these are the internal patterns the mind has chosen to associate to the ‘self’ that needs protecting. This is the past the mind has adopted to create who we call our ‘self’. This ‘self’ is fragile because it places emphasis on selected items from its entire existence but not its entire existence.

So what happens when something breaks through this protective layer of acquired self-ness?

Like a pin through the skin of a balloon, the fragile self succumbs to the pressure, releasing the tension from within, through rage, anxiety, fear and sadness. It is completely engorged with self-assuring support that when the pin comes, there is no compromise. Belief systems and coping mechanisms built up over years of protecting oneself from the outside, scattered chaotically amidst a series of incoherent babble.

Many people will exist their whole lives with pins so firmly pressed against their skin that anything will cause them to burst. They have decided that the past they have created, those specific elements that maintain a liveable protective bubble is sufficient to exist in, for their entire life. Even if it means an occasional outburst. Because the outburst is known, it is conceivable, there is no variable. If you do that, then this will happen.

So then, what happens when we let go of what happens? What happens when we decide there is no past? Is nobody behind the veil? If there is nobody in need of protecting, then there is nothing to fear, no victim, no perpetrator.

Does the balloon cease to exist?